today i taught...and i think i was HORRIBLE!! booo me...

even before i taught the lesson, i felt like it wouldn't go well...and then after, i knew it didn't. i hate days like this...but i guess i was more tense than usual...i don't think i was prepared enough [not as overly prepared as usual]...i think i'm not comfortable with the material and how to present it...and there were other underlying factors...like concern for family/friends & their situations, being tired, etc.

well, my teacher also knew that it didn't go well for me...but was more concerned about how i felt and not how i actually did...he said that it happens to everyone and i shouldn't feel bad...and i'm going to make mistakes and that if i really thought this was my worst, i should do whatever it takes to not feel that way ever again...i told him the stuff going on and what was on my mind, and he seemed to understand why things may have happened the way they did and said it was ok.

i tend to make things out to be worse than they actually are, whenever i do things anyway...not with others. i don't think it was as bad as i thought it was and i'm sure i'm making too big a deal out of it...and that my students probably learned something and didn't think it was such a bad lesson...and my teacher agreed.

oh well, it's passed...i feel a bit better now...6th period perked me up a little and i just found out that darryl has 2 interviews for dental school on the east coast, at NYU and univ. of med. & dentistry at NJ...i'm happy for him.

but for every bad feeling about my teaching that i have, i'm going to think of something positive that has happened in my teaching...so here goes:
tuesday i subbed, but yesterday i didn't and apparently my other teacher had an IEP meeting for part of 2nd period and had a sub. in the room...anyways, one of the students from her 2nd period saw me at lunch and said, "hey ms. nguyen - why didn't you sub for her today?" i told him that it was only for part of the period, and they send their own sub...then the student says to me, "oh. well, you should have subbed today. [they were/it was] so boring.." - I thought that was so cool! a lot of times i think i'm pretty boring or the kids don't really listen, but i guess he was trying to say that maybe i'm not...so i am happy about that. =)

well, i've yadda'd enough...i'm at work killing time. the one day i show up on time, none of my students come!! grr...oh well...it was meant to be this way...hehe.

what's everyone doing this weekend? the only thing i have going on is andy's birthday party saturday afternoon...after that, i'm free. let's get together!! talk to you all soon.. =)