hello peoples...well, i think that i'm slowly but surely being cut off from civilization.

strange how you're used to something, and then everything turns upside down on you...life is monotonous...steady and routine, but you have those moments that make it distinct and unique. Life is a few days that screw up that routine and make it crazy and adventurous. i think i stole that from a movie...riding in cars with boys...which, by the way, was terribly depressing as well...hmm...
anyways, on with my civilization reasoning...people seem to be disappearing...ann quit at work, which saddens me because she is a good person for the most part, and i hate to see someone i actually get along with go away...but she still works for us at the office occasionally after hours because dr. kuo is too CHEAP to hire a new billing person...i'm thinking about quitting that job at the end of december and fully concentrating on my teaching and working in that field...whether as a substitute or aide or whatever....the medical office makes me depressed. i might also point out that at the office all the girls got a copy of a group picture we took for hiroko's baby shower...everyone looks fine, except in the picture i'm in a very unflattering stance so of course i look like a big fat whale...i jokingly pointed this out to the girls and of course they said no...but then dr. rigonan looks at it...and she says, "wow everyone looks good but what happened to crystal? she looks so big here.." ok, first of all, i've been in this freakin' office for 3 years and she still does not know my name?? she has always called me chrysler or crystal...it's just...grrrr....and second of all, ok, yes, a bad picture of me...i get it. she said i looked fat in the picture, but not in real life...and i guess i should take solice in that, but to point out the blubbery-ness of my stature? which leads me to my hypothesis that doctors may be smart in medicine but are surely dumb in other things...such as the use of computers (where dr. rigonan and dr. tachibana paid $10,000 for a guy to install anti-virus and fix a billing program) and manners...i have found that all the doctors are lacking in this area...and actually, a lot of people in general. anyways...yes, office=nervous breakdown. but i'm getting side-tracked from the civilization thing...
so not only does ann quit, but cute pharmacy guy also quit...Long...he actually quit some time ago, but i didn't know cuz i can leave the office for the life of me...but no more of him in pharmacy, which saddens me, not because of the lack of eye candy but because he gave the best discount to me...damn...hehe
justin went to florida...hiya justin, you must be back.. =) hope you had a nice trip, but we didn't hear from you once...and it's your birthday this week man!! happy birthday justin!! =) but, continuing with my story...you were gone...
kim...you have been gone for a while...i didn't even know you were actually traveling about...but good for you. one day i will be able to afford something like that...but it will most likely be after i reach my 30s if things keep at this pace....
lisa...unfortunately you cannot go out given odd financial circumstances...i blame uci for any bitterness i have towards the world...not only do they make me dislike asians, rich people who have better cars than me and overachieving bio majors, they screw over my best friend too...grrr...no alumni donations to you!! =)
darryl...man, i used to talk to him a couple of times a week...now he has vanished! i haven't talked to him for over a month now...which is crazy, cuz i used to talk to him all the time...strange, very strange...i like talking to him because he encourages me when we're not bickering or saying we could kick each other's asses in tennis...which by the way, i really could kick his ass in tennis because that mofo has never played before...hehe, what a dork...but anyway, yes, i miss his optimism...
and rodel...gosh, i guess i see the most of you, but still hardly enough. maybe once/twice a week...and last week, hardly any phone calls cuz you were studying it up...which is fine and dandy and more important than falling asleep on the phone with me..but point is, i miss you...
that leaves just about no one left to communicate with...every now and then i'll have some random conversation with jackie, gabe or thuy...but other than that...where the hell did everyone go??? it just seems odd, that's all i'm saying. i miss society...anyways, just thought i'd share that...ok. that's all =)